Tuesday, December 01, 2015

270. Excerpts from random mental to-do lists - II


to
step out in the blue shirt
in which I think I look fat;
the one I try on each time
and change out into something else

to
say no to him finally
when he comes home
tonight
I have been trying for the last 7 months

to
sell all the balloons by evening
and buy myself a coca cola
like I do each month

to
take a bat
and beat Raj
next time he bullies me in school
or maybe, I should just change schools

to
binge-watch the series
I am tired of spoilers on facebook

to
vote before I go to work today

to
take my family to Mc Donald's
on Diwali
as promised

to
sew the fall 
on the special red saree
so I can wear it to Mc Donald's
on Diwali

to
push my boss
to have the discussion
on my rating

to
actually walk into the mall
and not walk by it
like I did the last 13 times
I have money now
but the guard looks so intimidating

to
try and get better at maths
and make Papa proud
I cannot fail the unit test,
another time

to
start exercising

to
go to the Ganesh temple
I have taken a vow
to walk up the steps
for 21 tuesdays
I can't tell you what I am doing it for
They say the vow does not work as well then

to
tell her
I love her

to
not give in
and ask my children their pocket money
to go to the bootlegger's
again tonight

to
make tamarind rice
maybe this time, it will turn out right

to
accompany Aai to the bank
though I dislike how
the people there talk down and embarrass us
each time

to
apologize to him
for all the hurtful things I said;
and accept that I was wrong

to be unafraid

to be different

to be brave

to be better

to be

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